My World!!

Tempting.....?

2009-07-31T00:44:00.000-07:00

im there....im there...........
Almost made it to the circle of friends...
i am finally being accepted to the dark side of Mars...
YES!!! YES!!!!!!

but then came the alignment of the 3 planets...
SPECTACULAR!!!! simple just the diamond of the universe....
VENUS!!!...came out from the light...
shining bright like the ring of eclipse...
spellbinding with its perfect symmetry...
one sentence says it all....
'I'm in love'

things i have almost achieved...
my left arm to shield...my right to fight...
grabing hold to both things i cherish...
the bond so strong to my right...which i have been fighting for the past decades...
while the left which seemed to have caught my soul...regardless that i just found it...
I WANT TO SHIELD IT!!!
yet...all arrows and obstacles seem to drains me out...
IT HURTS!!!...
To shield my beloved...i can only leave 2 parts of me with her...
my memories...and my heart...
though it is weakening...
i never doubt a moment that both of it will give their best...
for both of them are my closest friend....
letting go would be the last resort...
i have to take it...for better...or worse that happens to me...

for each time these things happen...i try to let it go...
YET...the infinite path ALWAYS seem to tempt me...
again....and again....and again....
luring me into its endless cycle every passing years....
and im the fool to have ALWAYS dropping in to its doorway....

have the devil took interest in me??...
whispering to my ear...GO...GO!!!!!
then pushed me down when im trying to grab hold of 'it'...
scars from the past BURNS within the flesh...
after every kick...
every punch...he throws at me
what am i to do????
Why dont fight back????

i have always been there to protect you...
treat you to dearly...yet its a SIN in everyway...
constantly avoided...getting the silent-treatment....
MAYBE thats you....
MAYBE the devil messed with my mind.....
OR MAYBE!!!
i was the one who is amidst of the triangle....clearly..but..not noticing it until i looked closely...
then it made sense...
that i don't belong...
just another disposable item....not to be proud of...

now...im awake(again)...
i wont be there for you...but i leave my memories..and heart with you...
i'm lieing if i say 'i hate you'...or ...'i dont like you'...
most of all....the worse lie i can ever say will be that 'i do not love you'...
so...
sadly...
i can only say...
'i once dreamt i have protected you with all my might, and you were there for me'
that...i can say would be a fantasy i hoped to be a reality...

after it all 'ends' again...going back to the dark again...
where i cry and moan to the walls....which are the ones who gave me comfort...and never neglecting me...
which made me who i am today...
i'll go on!!!... Thankz for the mind-puzzling memories....

Past,Present,Future

2009-04-21T07:58:00.000-07:00

Memories...Good Or Bad?

<<<<<<<<*>>>>>>>>

Loitering in my college grounds,

suddenly i saw someone,

reminded me of my past,

eventhough whats done is done.

what happened to me today?

suddenly your face came to my head,

then slowly thought of the others,

eventually you all think I am dead.

Sorrow and heartache,

Bringing their friend 'depress',

flowing in with countless questions,

HOW TO OVERCOME THIS STRESS???

wondering what is meant by 'friends'?

and what is meant by 'lover'?

a voice adviced me,

'Please, don't let it bother'.

The more I think of it,

the picture became clearer for me to see,

the source of all this problems,

all pointing at me.

She was the quiet one,

though it was time for 'happily ever after',

after she made that decision,

the jilt was a scar that last forever.

fogged by the mist,

questions of what went wrong,

after 5 months,

pretending to still stay strong.

'friends' and 'families',

where all the 'goodness' is all that makes it fit,

but the truth that has been found,

'selfishness' DOES squeeze in with both of it.

forget about our past,

and look forward to the future,

just because of a sad song,

'destiny's book' you tore the rest of the pictures.

Those I once called 'friends',

remember we once hang out together?

cause my identiti is not accepted by all of you,

left me freezing in the blizzarely hearts of winter.

I should thank all of you for the memorial pages of my life,

not forgetting you all once coloured it for me to remember,

but what's now is now,

i thank you all for the pain and the anger.

ordeal sufferings are painful,

you all don't feel it like others do,

the people i once think of my 'family', my 'friend',

now i leave it up to you.

if you are reading this,

i am sorry with what i have never done to please my friends,

not gifted with telepathy,

I'll never forget any of you eventhough my life does ends.

p.s. You all have shown me what it is like to be in different class status,

and shown me that friends are not there for each other.

If the past is the barrier between friends....then please do tell it out so that others won't place hope in sustaining it.

-Kitchen Heaven-

2008-12-07T05:21:00.001-08:00

GONG XI

GONG XI....

GONG XI FA CHAI!!!!

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Its Cinese New Year!!!!!

obviously...my blog is about FOOD now...hahaha

lets bring out the MAGNIFICENT gourmets.......??

(its just pastry by the way)

lets look at the 'latest' look for....

PINEAPLLE TARTS!!

my mom suddenly looked up on this new look for this tart...

looks like???

the mandarine orange ya.....hahahaha

in hokkien...we call this pastry 'ong lai piah'...

the most important word is the 'ong'

as that means

prosperous (if i'm not mistaken)

and the shape of the mandarine orange...actually representing 'kam'....

meaning

gold(also if im not mistaken)

hahaha...this is the proses of making it

before baking it in the oven...

bake it for a moment....

then have to paint some egg yolk on the surface....

and the results.....

GOLDEN MANDARINE ORANGES!!!!!!!!

(sorry that i forgot to upload that picture)

HAHAHAHA

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....Cakes....

I've always talked about cakes and cookies and pastries....

as they fascinate me with their beauty...

and myriad types of flavours....

and...what makes it much more special...

is THIS cakes and pastries....

are used as symbols for so MANY events....

and the event i love the most....

***BIRTHDAYS***

HAHAHAHA....

we use cakes to sweeten up our day...

and reminding us the day we were brought to this....

wonderful ,yet scary world

filled with much cherishable and suffering past...

this year....

i went out with my friends and had a fiesta a day before my birthday!!

tried 8 different kind of cakes from

SECRET RECIPE

(i'll recommend to you all their chocolate banana cake...very nice)

....on my birthday itself....

my mom baked me the fluffy cheese cake...

(which is also the one she already taught me)

for my 18th birthday...

(FINALLY!!! I'M 18!!!!!!!!)

ahem....hahaha....

and the most special part of this special day is....

my uncle and aunt celebrated my bday this year!!!

(it doesn't happen often though)

there are a few pictures that will be posted later....

me and my cousins....having a whale of time...cracking up jokes...

HAHAHA

undenieable....this is my best bday party since I was born...

(not trying to be emotional and all)

and look at what we ate today???

hehehehe

hahahahaha

DON'T THINK NEGATIVELY YA!!!!!!

hahaha

and as a birthday gift....

my Uncle Nelson asked me to help out with....

the making of....

FONDUE!!!

(this time with strawberry from Cameron Highlands and dark chocolate)

OH MAN!!!!!

for those chocolate lovers...

and also health conscious people....

this might be a dessert we will all...

FALL IN LOVE WITH!!!

biting off the strawberry from the stem...

then slowly chewing it...

THEN........

the splasing of both dark choc...

and strawberry...

which combines harmoniously!!!!!!!!!!

OMG!!!!! i bet you all will love it!!!!!

and a reminder is...try to find sweet strawberries...

the sour ones will make it taste sour....

hahaha

Trying to make it a heart shape....

hahaha...does it look like one???
>>>

i'll post up the funny pictures if i have the time....

then you all can laugh while 'enjoying' the tour in my blog...

ONE LAST THING!!!

the next person i know who will be 18 soon...this Feb

is our........

TEH JU ANN (director)... then

KOK SANG!!! on March!!!

slowly turn 18 ya......

MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

until next time...

bye all!!!!

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Art For Culinary???

Wanna know something related to culinary???
its not only for adult's......
its for ALL ages and it's something u dont see when u think about boring old culinary....
in the kitchen...
the thick OIL smell....
and ALL the 'MANLY' / ' WOMANLY' sweat coming out from the body.....

Let me bring you to this world....
of.........

FONDANT

This few 'MASTERPIECE'...made by my mom and I....spent almost

HALF A DAY

just to finish all of it...hahahaha

my mom introduced me to this fondant last 3 days ago(22Dec08)

and...the creationS u see above is the results of our hard work!!!!

HAHAHAHA

The very first thing i did was this...

2 days ago...(23Dec2008)
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So????

what do all of you think about it???

oh ya....JU ANN!!! TEACH ME...

HOW TO DO THAT CHATBOX!!!!!
THIS IS AN

EMERGENCY!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

hm......when it comes to all this holiday seasons....

my mom will whip out a

FEAST

of cakes..and cookies...

So...this chrismas...

2008

IT'S TIME FOR......

CUPCAKES!!!!!! again....

we did this yesterday...(24Dec2008)

Mouth-watering cupcakes over here!!!

hahahaha

want some??? contact me....^^

while my mom was busy doing the cupcakes....

i went to 'play' with the ready-made fondant

and guess what i made this time???

YUP!!!!!!

and more.....!!

remember the 3D chrismas tree???

i fulfilled my promise!!!

hahahaha

hope you all had a good time looking at all of this pictures....

and try to play...ahem...learn...

to enjoy cooking/baking....no matter your a

Guy / Girl / Pondan

just try it out...MAYBE you'll

LOVE

it....

So...thats all for this time...the next posting may be late or early...so...

try to check this out once a while ya???

WISH ALL OF YOU

MERRY CHRISTMAS

AND

A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

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Today's Menu : Cupcakes.....

Lets look at todays menu....

OH!!!! CUPCAKES!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahaha.........

my mom did the cupcakes and i helped a bit only with the icing and all....

what do u all think about this ??
they say that this cupcakes are worth like

RM 4.50 for just one MINI CUPCAKE!!!
that's like.....WOA!!!!!

all those effort is worth every sweat man!!!

I'm waiting to learn how to make a thick icing....

then can make Christmas tree.....

IN 3D!!!!

BUT..........

better stick to the basics first....

like they always say... don't try to run before you can walk...

K.... that will be all this time.....more to come in the future!!!!
So...tune in to this channel every week and u may be surprised with the various food that will be provided.....

P.S. If you want to order this cupcakes...please call....

016-992-BLEK!!!!

no delivery sevice provided.....come to the main store to collect.....HAHAHAHA!!!!