Past,Present,Future

Memories...Good Or Bad?

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Loitering in my college grounds,

suddenly i saw someone,

reminded me of my past,

eventhough whats done is done.

what happened to me today?

suddenly your face came to my head,

then slowly thought of the others,

eventually you all think I am dead.

Sorrow and heartache,

Bringing their friend 'depress',

flowing in with countless questions,

HOW TO OVERCOME THIS STRESS???

wondering what is meant by 'friends'?

and what is meant by 'lover'?

a voice adviced me,

'Please, don't let it bother'.

The more I think of it,

the picture became clearer for me to see,

the source of all this problems,

all pointing at me.

She was the quiet one,

though it was time for 'happily ever after',

after she made that decision,

the jilt was a scar that last forever.

fogged by the mist,

questions of what went wrong,

after 5 months,

pretending to still stay strong.

'friends' and 'families',

where all the 'goodness' is all that makes it fit,

but the truth that has been found,

'selfishness' DOES squeeze in with both of it.

forget about our past,

and look forward to the future,

just because of a sad song,

'destiny's book' you tore the rest of the pictures.

Those I once called 'friends',

remember we once hang out together?

cause my identiti is not accepted by all of you,

left me freezing in the blizzarely hearts of winter.

I should thank all of you for the memorial pages of my life,

not forgetting you all once coloured it for me to remember,

but what's now is now,

i thank you all for the pain and the anger.

ordeal sufferings are painful,

you all don't feel it like others do,

the people i once think of my 'family', my 'friend',

now i leave it up to you.

if you are reading this,

i am sorry with what i have never done to please my friends,

not gifted with telepathy,

I'll never forget any of you eventhough my life does ends.

p.s. You all have shown me what it is like to be in different class status,

and shown me that friends are not there for each other.

If the past is the barrier between friends....then please do tell it out so that others won't place hope in sustaining it.